Before Sunrise !!

There are times in life when one just wishes to dis-associate from all the things that brings in joy. I have understood that this is for the fear of an apparent truth that one day this has to go and bring in another period where all you do is - anticipate for something interesting to occur , something that can bring you joy, something that would have you feel a feeling , a sense of achievement and a gratifying burp of happiness erupts to mark the phase of well-being. But well all this comes only to fade away again into oblivion and continue this cycle of consistent happenings.

Yes before Sunrise life is always wonderful because you know the horizon holds light !!

Iam guilty of perhaps over-using this statement but well nothing can define and confine my feelings in a better way - "The chase is always better than the catch". I have , for most part of my life, dreamt of living in a place far away from home, amongst people i just dont know , in a culture thats alien to me in its existance. Now here iam , closer to this dream that i was ever before but iam seeking to remain evasive, away from this dream that i just dont want to live. This isnt for any reason that hsa changed my mind and certainly not that iam mot interested to land anymore. Its is simply for a silly fact that its close and "liveble" now. Sometimes in life you just wish to always want and remain in the happy illusion of the dream getting closer and closer but when things actually turn up and knock at your door , you feel better to shoo them away.

But well , i have no regrets . I have realised that my dissatisfaction with life is merely a extra function of my greed of wanting things. Iam closer to a lot of things i have always seen from a sound distance, a fruitful barrier that gives birth to dreams - the fuel to get closer and closer.

Life has been centred around the trip that iam making this september . My visa has been processed and my tickets booked. Most time of the day is spent in the trial rooms of all fancy malls and stores picking up the best of wears and everything else that i would need in Edinburgh. Occasionally at night , i love to open google maps to randomly check the various streets that i would find myself in a month from now. Mails are being shot across to various destinations hoping to bag some decent work.

Iam very happy also to see the response of everyone and the palpable excitement in everyone is certainly exhilarating. Also a lot of activity is happening on facebook with people sharing thoughts and fostering new relationships. It is very very exciting time to be in and again a sad thing to let go off. A few days from now we would all be together , sharing most time of our day and i can only hope and wish that this excitement and love remains forever.

I would really wish that this patform can be exploited to the best extent by every one of us to share ideas , thoughts, to buld relationships, to agree and disagree on matters that matter, to decide on meeting for a cuppa and to exchange ideas for the program.

You know what ?! - Life is the nicest thing nowadays. !! :-)

Hope its the same with all

Cheers !!

Chirag Jain